"She laughs without fear of the future."

HAHAHAHAHA. If you say so, Lord.

So I had been working on this a lot lately {and failing, but hey at least I was trying, right?}. The future terrified me. For those who know me well, it's pretty clear that I'm of the independent variety. I've always just done things on my own. Rely on someone? Why? I've always known exactly who I wanted to be, what I wanted to do, and when it was going to happen. Then I grew up and got out of high school {joke and actual fact at the same time}And within a matter of months everything that I had always known got thrown out the window. All that I was no longer applied. All that I will be is yet to be defined. The only constant? My Savior. So that being said, I've really tried to narrow down what it is that is scary about the unknown in order to refute it.

Which, humorously, wasn't hard at all.

Scary: 

-not knowing if you'll end up okay
-not knowing if you'll be happy
-not knowing if you'll belong
-not knowing 

Reasons that those excuses are dumb:
-The Lord works ALL things together
-The JOY of the Lord is my strength
-The body of Christ is my family and home.
-Christ is my refuge in times of trouble.
-My Father is omniscient.

Okay so when we break out of the everyday hub-ub it's a lot easier to see with clarity. Recently I spent 2 weeks as a camp counselor. The Truth that I heard was meant for me. I was supposed to be there. Since I got back I have had time to scratch the surface to see just how much that time changed me. I cried. A lot. There were realizations made. Changes are happening. Life is moving forward. And for once I'm not scared. For once I have put aside the thought that I can stop the world from spinning. For once I am realizing that things will always, no matter what, be okay. Heartbreak? It heals. That's the beauty of time. We honestly have nothing to fear. Death? We know where we're going. The future needs not to be looked at with trembling hands. Everything. Always. Works. Out. Who cares if it's different than I intend? It'll be better. Who cares if things take longer than I'd like? They'll be more appreciated. Who cares if dreams fall through? They'll be replaced.

It's good to have dreams, but what is the purpose behind them? Ourselves, or Him? All that matters is the Kingdom. The Lord. His church. And His love for the lost. While I was at camp I wasn't thinking about money, clothes, calendars, graduating, or my job. I was concerned with people. I was concerned with the Church. I was concerned with love. I realized how fragile life is. How much every moment needs to be seized with fervency. I saw miracles take place. I was pushed emotionally. I was pushed physically. I experienced supernatural strength and rejuvenation in the presence of the Lord.

We live a life molded after what we orient ourselves to. If our orientation points to the world, those are the things that we'll care about. If our orientation is towards Christ, He is what we will care about. If our dreams center around ourselves, of course we will fear that they won't come true! But if our dreams center around making His glory known, then everything that does or doesn't happen will be good.


I adore this way of viewing life. We are the Church. Jesus rose from the grave. He knows all that is to come, He knew me before I was born, He is my family, and He will provide for me. I don't have anything to fear. Anything! Jesus rose from the grave. He is the conqueror of death. 

Life is only scary when you forget what your purpose is.

And when you remember, fear dissipates.

He will provide.
He will protect.
He is my Lord.
I am His child.

We. Have. Nothing. To. Fear.